Day 1

Today has been interesting. It's the day of my baptismal birthday. I am so grateful to be called a daughter of a King. I read a verse this morning from an email that I get everyday, it says, "When you had heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation, and had believed in Christ you, were marked with the seal of the promised Holy Spirit." Ephesians 1:13

I thought this verse is perfect for my baptismal birthday, to remind me that I have been marked with the seal of the Holy Spirit.

Part of this journey of 40 days that I am taking is about finding myself in God or finding or finding my identity in God....which also goes along with trusting in God. There are many concepts which are all connected and can only be understood in simple terms by separating them from the whole. Separating them from the whole hardly does them justice. I am not trying to understand the fullness of Christ all at once. I have no power to do that. I have no power to forward myself in this journey, I can only present myself as I am before Christ professing my many sins, and asking for forgiveness and strength in repentance.

I pray that God will fill me with His love and give me the discernment to do His will. I am His servant.

The emotional toll of my bodily sickness has weighed me down today. I feel depressed, but I keep praying that God might use my weakness to bring me closer to Him. I pray that I might learn deeper meanings and truth from the death of my own dreams and the surrender of my will to Christ.

I am a meager servant, only by His grace have I been saved and I am forever thankful. I hope that by His grace He might let me experience His great love and peace that I so long for.