I have been following my plan to read the Bible, journal, and pray daily. It has been difficult to follow even this simple activity. The walls that I have built up in my life to protect me are hindering my progress on my spiritual journey. It's frustrating b/c I can see that it is happening and yet I feel I have no power to overcome. Maybe, the point is that I don't have power. This is another situation in which my human weakness prevents me from reaching out to God, namely my pride.
My mood and general disposition have been quite sour. I admit to being to unkind to my fellow human being. I admit to being unkind to myself. I find that I am failing to hold to true to my commitment for Lent, but each day I will try again. Each day I will pray more and seek God to help me through the temptations of sin.
Living in the present moment is a skill that I want to practice. This means that I am trusting God with everything I am and abiding in Him right now. This is much harder than one might imagine. Our world teaches us to plan ahead and be ready for anything. It gives us the message that we are in control when in fact we are not.
My prayer today is that God will be gentle with me as I journey through this desert. That He will open my eyes, ears, and heart so that they will only respond to His voice.
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