This is the beginning of the 40-day fast. I am excited and nervous. I truly want to hold true to my promises. I want to go through this time and give everything I have and everything I am to Christ.
I was reading a little on Lent, and the passage referred to Jesus spending 40 days in the desert where he was tempted 3 times by satan. All 3 times Jesus cited scripture to fight the temptations that satan offered. When I think about this in the context of my own life, I realize that I do not go straight to scripture or straight to God when fighting temptations of sin. I instead try to rely on my own resources and I end up falling into the sin no matter what I try. If Jesus turns to God in His temptations, then who am I to say that I am stronger than Jesus? I clearly am far less powerful and wise and loving than Jesus. I am weak and prideful and vain. I need His help. I need His guidance in every decision that I make in every thought that I think and in every word that comes out of my mouth.
My prayer today is that God would enter my heart and give me the strength to overcome temptation and sins. That He would be Lord over my life and guide me through this wilderness. I desire to only to turn to Him, but even in turning to Him I am weak and often falter. His will be done. I am His servant.
Lent Fasting Final List:
*no purging
*daily prayer/meditation
*daily scripture reading
*daily taking insulin and blood sugars
*daily nutrition
*daily journaling
*daily spiritual reading
This list might seem long, but this is my small attempt to give up or surrender things that I know are keeping me from the love of God. I will probably be posting here, quite often, b/c I want to keep true to this list and this commitment.
May the Lord bless and guide me on this 40 day journey.
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